Thursday, October 15, 2009
I wish today were just another day on the calendar.
I don't want to light a candle today for my son...
I want to light a candle on June 1st...
On top of his birthday cake...
As we sing happy birthday to a messy faced little boy.
This candle is wrong.
This isn't the candle I was supposed to light.
But this is my reality.
I'm part of the October 15th club whether or not I want to be. So this evening I light a candle for Wyatt. I light one for him and one for all the other wonderful women I've met who has to light candles for a baby who isn't with them today.
I've looked and looked for the perfect candle to light for Wyatt, and always came up empty handed... Little did I know it's been right under my nose this entire time.
The candle I chose to light for Wyatt was our unity candle. From this day forward, the candle that we used to symbolize the unity of our separate lives into one, will be used to symbolize our complete family that will be united once again in heaven.
As I sit here, I do so with a heavy heart. I'm thinking of all the mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and friends, who are lighting a candle for a baby they miss and love so dearly. My prayers and thoughts are with each and every one of you tonight.