Sunday, November 1, 2009
Yes, this is going to be another post about how miserable the holidays have become, but if you stick with me, we will actually make it to the light at the end of the tunnel before this post is over. Promise.
But for now,... Back to the miserable part.
How depressing is it to walk through the stores and see "Baby's First Christmas" items plastered everywhere?
Let me answer that one for all of us with a good LOUD scream!
I want to buy "Baby's First" things for Wyatt...
I've actually been getting angry when I go into the stores and see all this stuff. I think,"How could the stores be so insensitive to the fact that there are so many women in this world who want to buy "Baby's First" this or that but can't because their baby died?" I mean, they should cater to us and put all that type of stuff in a locked part of the store with warning signs and ID checks before you can enter, right?! I know, that's
a bit WAY over the top. But, It's my brain, and well, I can be a bit of a drama queen sometimes!
Anyways, I was throwing one of my self pity parties the other day (they are really no fun when I have them by myself, you're all invited next time) and decided I really hated the way I was letting (yes, LETTING) myself feel. Wyatt was still going to have his first Christmas, it will just be in heaven instead of here.
So, I ventured into Things Remembered and found a gorgeous star ornament that was engrave-able! I won't get into how completely embarrassed I was when I burst into tears in the middle of the store while I was trying to explain to the woman what I wanted... Thank goodness she was understanding. However, I was still mortified.
In the end, this is what I got.
The front of the star says:
We never lose the ones we Love, They live on in our Hearts.
And the back says:
1st Christmas in heaven
Wyatt Nathaniel Finchum
And of course it has the year on a little heart attached to the ribbon.
It's not what I envisioned getting as his "Baby's First Christmas" ornament, but I think it's perfect. It will be a reminder to me that Wyatt is still getting to celebrate his very first Christmas... I can't wait for Wyatt to tell me all about his Christmas' in heaven one day, and how he got to celebrate our saviors birthday in his very presence for his entire life.
See, I told you I'd cheer up this post before I was done!