"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
How many times have we heard (or read) that verse? I think I've heard that verse just about as much as my own name! But do we hear it so much, that we just brush it aside and think, "Yeah, yeah. I've heard that a million times already"? Well, maybe there's a reason we hear it so much. That one, short verse is filled with a plethora of truth and wisdom.
talked written in previous posts about how I had learned my lesson on the topics of faith and trust, and how I wished God would stop teaching them to me already...
But have I really learned my lesson?
Of course I trust God. I know he has an "ultimate plan", and that everything he lets happen to us, aides in his grand scheme of things... But how well do I trust God? I wouldn't be completely honest, if I didn't tell you my trust was shaken when he allowed Wyatt to receive such a horrible diagnosis. My trust in him wavered when Joseph came back holding Wyatt and telling me "He was gone". It's hard to trust God with your whole heart, when the plan he has for your life doesn't fall into the realm (anywhere near it, for that matter) of what you had planned.
But I guess that is where faith comes in. Trust and faith fit together like a glove. When our trust is shaken, we have to fall back on our faith in God's plan for our lives.
Hebrews 11:1 says: "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
I'm finding that you can't have complete trust in God, without having faith in him too. Now, I'm not even saying complete faith in him... you just have to work with what you've got, pray for God to renew your faith, and remember that we serve a BIG God that can do anything!
After all, Matthew 17:20 says: "...If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you." Did you hear that? Faith as small as a mustard seed, can MOVE MOUNTAINS! That really puts my personal faith in perspective...
Although I may not understand what God's doing in my life, or maybe even why he's doing it, I am able to lay back and say, "Lord, I gave my life to you... that includes every aspect of my life. Myself, my husband, our children, our finances, our health, and so on. I trust you know what is best for our life, and how we can best bring you glory... do your will, and I will accept the path you direct us to".
Does this mean it's easy to let go? No.
Does this mean I'll never struggle with my faith or trust in God? I wish.
It's easy to give yourself over to God, but it's a completely different story when you're talking about your husband or your children! My faith, small as it may be, is what allows me to trust God so completely that I can place the lives of my loved ones in his hands. Even when our family is enduring circumstances that are far from desirable, I know God will take care of us....he always has. I guess faith and trust are lessons we will continue to learn the rest of our lives. The lessons may not always be fun, but I guarantee you they will be exactly what God ordered.
Although this blog was started as a way to document our time with Wyatt and to introduce him to the world in hopes of helping others, it's really so much more than that. It's about our journey as we learn (very slowly) how to let God have complete authority over our family. It's about laying down the desires of our hearts, and carrying out the desires of God. It's about letting go, even when it rips our hearts out. Plainly and simply, It's about Letting Go and Letting God.