Friday, January 1, 2010
My "Secret Blog" is no longer a secret. I have opened it up so that anyone who wants to read about this pregnancy may do so. It's called, Are You Serious Lord?! I hope any questions you may have are answered, but if they aren't... feel free to ask.
This is the true reason I haven't been around lately. I've felt like such a fraud for not sharing this part of my life with you. It is a huge relief to get the weight of this secret off my shoulders. Not to mention the fact that I know this baby's health will be continually prayed for. I'm still iffy on whether or not I will post my updates of this pregnancy on Letting Go an Letting God or not. My hesitation either way is two fold.
First, I worry about my angel mom friends who are sensitive to the news of a new pregnancy. I know it always stung a little for me when a new pregnancy was announced... and I wasn't even trying to have another baby! It was just a reminder for me that I was too scared to try for something I so desperately wanted. I'm not here to hurt anyone, even if it is unintentional... This makes me want to separate everything so you can choose to read about this baby or not.
On the other, Letting Go and Letting God was created to document our family's journey as we learned to trust him when all hope seemed to be lost. It is about giving God our hopes, dreams, fears, and worries, while knowing he is fully capable of sustaining our family. This baby is already a part of our family. He will be Wyatt's baby sibling... I don't think it's right to separate one of my children from a blog that documents my entire family.
So, I'm leaning toward the latter... but I haven't completely made up my mind yet. I'd love to get your points of view. I'd like complete honesty. I want to know if reading about my pregnancy makes you upset or uncomfortable. Even if you need to post anonymously I'd appreciate the honesty. I feel as though I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place.
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