{Interesting} Appointment

My appointment today was, um, interesting...

I had this irrational fear that they would find something wrong simply because we were taking Ansley and Eli with us to see their newest baby brother. This is the first appointment with Seth that we've been brave enough to consider allowing the children to come along.

Anyways, the children were pretty good considering how early we had to drag them out of bed to make the hour long trip for my appointment at 7:30 this morning. Ansley was upset that we were leaving the house while the sun was still sleeping! After I let the kids have cookies for breakfast (I know, I should be nominated for worst mother of the year) they seemed a little more receptive to being dragged out of bed and forced to put clothes on. Didn't you know that cookies make everything better?!

The ultrasound itself was pretty uneventful. The tech was so sweet and took her time answering all of my questions. I really appreciate it when we're not rushed out of the room. I cherish every second I get to see this little baby boy.

Seth's heart rate was running 147bpm. I am 26 weeks and 3 days pregnant today, but was measuring 26 weeks and 5 days. They are still keeping my due date at July 2nd which I expected. The pregnancy newsletter that I subscribe to says an average weight for a baby at this gestation should be about 1 3/4 pounds. Seth weighed all that and more, tipping the scales at a whopping 2 pounds 2 ounces! I guess he really is a robust little guy!

We only got a couple of pictures, but there is one picture that turned out amazing. You can actually see Seth's left eye open! The technician said it was very rare to get such a great shot. I'm not surprised though... God has been really great with giving me the extra reassurance I need throughout this pregnancy.



I did have a big scare today over what turned out to be nothing...

The technician left and said the doctor would review my chart and be in to talk to me in about 10 minutes or so... No red flags went up. This was normal protocol for this hospital. But when we got a knock on the door, two doctors entered the room. My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. Why were there two doctors?

They introduced themselves, I vaguely remember shaking both of their hands, and then one of their phones ring... "Oh, excuse me a moment", he said... and then I hear "Oh, hello Dr. Joy", as he starts flipping back through my chart before both doctors excuse themselves to talk to my doctor.

We were left sitting there thinking the worst. I mean, imagine how bad that looked!

Two doctors came in to talk to me...

my doctor was on the phone with them...

They excused themselves to talk to my doctor...

Lord please let Seth be alright!

I had that sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach that I felt when I realized there was something wrong with Wyatt. I just knew I was going to get bad news again. The other shoe was finally dropping... I wanted to run away but was paralyzed by fear. So, I just sat there and held my breath as I prayed.

Eventually one of the doctors came back in. He apologized for the delay, told me everything looked great with the baby, and sent me on my way. I wanted to hug the doctor and punch him in the face all at the same time! You don't do that to a woman who has suffered a loss...

I'm sure they don't even realize how much they upset me. It set the tone for today to be a pretty tough day despite the good ultrasound. It just sent me back to that place again. It sent me back in time momentarily to the place... to the emotions I felt when we realized Wyatt was going to die and that there was nothing we could do. I felt helpless again.

It took everything in me to hold it together. I teared up a little, but was proud of myself that I was able to choke it back down. Of course, talking to Celia helped me a lot. I know she's got to get sick of my venting sessions, but oh, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her to talk to! She's pulled me through some pretty rough patches...

Long story short, Seth is healthy and I couldn't be happier to know he's safe and warm inside my ever expanding belly. Thank you to everyone for your prayers. I don't know what I would do without any of you bloggy friends and prayer warriors either. Your love and support is so very appreciated and cherished.