Sunday, March 13, 2011
This evening, at 6pm, I get to ingest this cherry flavored drink called magnesium citrate. Let me tell you... Not so excited about that... Especially considering the fact that the paper my OBGYN sent along with it added instructions to "stay hydrated because magnesium citrate will cause severe diarrhea as it is intended to clear the digestive tract".
Why am I drinking this? To prepare for surgery tomorrow.
Why am I just now telling you when I've know about this for weeks? Because I felt like Leah and the rest of the Dunn family needed your prayers more. (I hope you are still remembering them in your prayers by the way)
Why am I having this surgery and what type of surgery is this? Well, That's complicated!
I've been having a lot of female problems since the end of November. It's gotten so bad that it's nearly impossible for my husband and I to be intimate because the pain from our encounters can be almost excruciating. Plus, I bleed afterwards and I've never had that problem before.
I'm constantly walking around with pelvic pain. The best way to describe it is that it feels like I've just had a baby. You know how your actual pelvic bones ache after a natural birth? That's how I feel.
I'm also bleeding in some form or another more than I'm not throughout the month. Those symptoms, accompanied by having practically no energy all the time made me get myself to the doctor. He was convinced I was starting to stuffer from endometriosis. He ran all the normal tests. Full blood panel, complete pap, endometrial biopsy, ultrasound, trans vaginal ultrasound... Everything came back fine! So, I'm either going insane or there is something that was missed.
Dr. G (or Dr. Joy as I've taken the liberty to nickname him) thinks there could be a lesion or something that could be causing the pain and wants to do a diagnostic laparoscopy. While he is in there, I am going to have a tubal and a balloon ablation because Joseph and I are confident that having more children is not a wise decision. It's just not fair to us or a future child to attempt another pregnancy knowing there is a 1 in 4 chance of having another baby with the same condition that Wyatt had. As much as I'd love another child of my own, adoption is a better, more logical, option for our family.
So, tomorrow morning at about 7:30 I will be wheeled into the operating room and be put under for this surgery. I'm really nervous because I have never been put under for anything. Not even dental type stuff! The ONLY times I have EVER been in the hospital have been to have my children.
Providing all goes well, I will get to come home after I wake up and recover at home. Please pray Dr. Joy figures out what is causing all this pain. Intimacy is a big part of marriage and I miss having that connection with my husband. It's very frustrating to want that connection, but not be able to act on it because it hurts to even stand for long periods of time, much less... well, you know...